About
Who Am I? What’s My Story?
I'm a Poet-Seer.
For as long as I can remember, I've woken from dreams with poetry and songs reciting in my head at a consistent regularity. I didn't understand what this was for most of my life or where it came from, but it certainly instilled a passion in me for writing and I can credit this phenomenon for a lot of my musical, written, and visual work. I've been writing poetry, singing, and painting since I first learned to hold a pencil in elementary school and, from a young age, was at least able to to recognize I have an extra-ability with words.
In more recent years I've been diagnosed with neurodivergence (AuDHD) and hyperlexia. According to modern psychology that means I'm good with words and reading, the opposite of dyslexia, but don't ask me to do math. I also have number based synesthesia which prevents me from quickly calculating numbers.
Though the modern world has pathologized my unique way of existing, I have also been on an exploration of my heritage and indigenous roots from Celtic, Pagan, and Sicilian traditions. Those lineages offer a vastly different perspective on who and what I am. I've discovered my gifts and way of being in this life align with the ancient traditions of shamans and, specific to my heritage, Poet- Seers. Learning about my indigenous roots has granted me so much clarity on my life and what I'm here to do and I feel a strong urge to restore the ancient ways into the modern world.
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How does this manifest in my daily life?
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The synesthesia part of my neurodivergence provides me with the ability to perceive sound and music as shapes, textures, movement, and colors in my head. I use this to create intricate but also well-informed melodies to music tracks. That skill combined with hyperlexia/being a Poet-Seer, allows me to quickly write poetic lyrics and messages. I'm proud of this ability even if it comes with oddities outside of the music and art world; one seemingly being prophetic dreams and a disturbing ability to predict future events and assess a person's psychological and subconscious state with intense accuracy often knowing things about them before they've discovered it themselves.
The Shamanic Initiation
A shamanic initiation is a profound spiritual awakening often triggered by intense life events, illness, trauma, or spontaneous mystical experiences—signaling a soul’s call to step into the role of healer, guide, or spirit communicator. It marks the beginning of a transformative path where the individual learns to navigate both suffering and vision in service to others. This remains true in the ancient Celtic and Indo-European traditions. My story spans the breadth of shamanic initiation from traumatic childhood events like divorce, death of a parent and other close family members, to personal illness (Alport Syndrome and Hashimoto's/Thyroid Disease), and life-altering mystical experiences involving precognitive dreams, telepathy, and more.
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These experiences in early life ripped me from the normalcy of everyday modern life leaving me between worlds: the spirit and the material. The only sense of grounding I could find was in "art". I proudly bore this title for myself and all my work believing it to be the proper name for myself and what I do. I now strongly disagree after learning about my indigenous roots.
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Why I No Longer Call Myself an Artist
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What I've come to understand is that "art" in the context of my western and modern society has been separated from the deeper spiritual connection it once had. Though the term encompasses a large array of meaning, it has been greatly reduced down to separate the communicator (aka artist) from the true source of this knowledge- the other side of the veil, spirit, the dead, the ancestors, whatever you want to call it.
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My western society has not allowed this perspective to flourish or even see much light of day. This reductionism and forced materialism left me quite helpless in the wake of my "unexplainable" and mystical abilities and experiences. I felt alone for quite some time until the experiences forced me to search for more information about the truth of my reality and how this world works. That all led me down a rabbit hole of reading about psychic mediums, ufos, aliens, and other paranormal phenomenon until I landed at indigenous knowledge and finding what my own indigenous roots are.
As many a wise indigenous person has said to us westerners over the decades, "everyone is indigenous". We are all native to this earth and to this land, but we've been forced into extreme "individuality" which has separated us from nature and the land we were born on. We are all indigenous to somewhere on this earth, somewhere that our bodies' cells and DNA were built from. Finding mine has profoundly changed my life for the better.
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I now understand that my ancestors have been reaching out to me my entire life and I have never been disconnected from the family members who I thought I "lost". Indigenous knowledge has rebuilt me as the person I was born to be and allowed me the room to develop the skills I need to do the work I'm supposed to do.
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I am a Poet-Seer, born with the rhythmic sight of word magic, designed as a bridge connecting the immaterial world to the material, the spirit world to you, and you to the spirit world. ​​​